A letter

I don't know what must I say again
When this mouth can't say anything with wisely this eyes will say.
Yeah this eyes always cry never say tired and never end.

Who's make me fell in love so far?
Who's he?
He is you!! So where's your responsible for that? Where's?
I know I'm not like kind of them
I know I'm not perfect
I know I'm stupid
I know I can't be the one who you love
I know I can't be what you like

How fool I'm !!
Why this eyes always cry?
Why this heart like on fire?
Pain! Its feel

Do you know? How pain this heart?
So how u can said don't feel this pain?
How you can said like that? How?

Swear in the name of Allah!!
I really love you :'( I really love youu!
With what I close this pain?
Please answer me with what I close that?

I'm not strong girl as you said?
I'm weak very weak!
So how you can said keep smile? How?

I know this distance its so hard I know it well but don't make it as reason!
You ever said someday it can be real we can meet but you had break down all my planing.

Its not easy to love in long distance. Its not easy but I have tried to keep patient and keep dream it will be real someday.
But you said we already done! Done!
Its the first time I lose a boy and crying all night long!

Where's your feel? Pleaseeee don't do this to me! I had lose my dad forever and then you wanna leave me too and ask me to find someone else!
I can't!

I will not take care of my self from now! I don't care really don't care!
Oh maybe you should kill me cause I always diforce you to keep stay with me.
And after I died you can life without my disturbing.

For the last I swear I love you so much! Don't care what will you say!
I don't care