A letter

I don't know what must I say again
When this mouth can't say anything with wisely this eyes will say.
Yeah this eyes always cry never say tired and never end.

Who's make me fell in love so far?
Who's he?
He is you!! So where's your responsible for that? Where's?
I know I'm not like kind of them
I know I'm not perfect
I know I'm stupid
I know I can't be the one who you love
I know I can't be what you like

How fool I'm !!
Why this eyes always cry?
Why this heart like on fire?
Pain! Its feel

Do you know? How pain this heart?
So how u can said don't feel this pain?
How you can said like that? How?

Swear in the name of Allah!!
I really love you :'( I really love youu!
With what I close this pain?
Please answer me with what I close that?

I'm not strong girl as you said?
I'm weak very weak!
So how you can said keep smile? How?

I know this distance its so hard I know it well but don't make it as reason!
You ever said someday it can be real we can meet but you had break down all my planing.

Its not easy to love in long distance. Its not easy but I have tried to keep patient and keep dream it will be real someday.
But you said we already done! Done!
Its the first time I lose a boy and crying all night long!

Where's your feel? Pleaseeee don't do this to me! I had lose my dad forever and then you wanna leave me too and ask me to find someone else!
I can't!

I will not take care of my self from now! I don't care really don't care!
Oh maybe you should kill me cause I always diforce you to keep stay with me.
And after I died you can life without my disturbing.

For the last I swear I love you so much! Don't care what will you say!
I don't care

Friend zone!!

Do you know what is friend zone?
Ih dengernya aja udah ngeri-,- tapi ini juga terjadi sama gw ~nangis bombay :'(

Dan juga ini pasti terjadi sama lo semua di luar sana hoho
Gw disini gak mau nyeritain pengalaman friend zone gw karena kalo gw ceritain pasti lo semua bakal bilang ~sakitnya tuh disini
Disini gw mau kasih motivasi-motivasi supaya kuat menghadapi friend zone whahaha

Kalo dipikir-pikir terjebak di friend zone itu ada enak sama nggaknya.

Enaknya lo bisa deket setiap saat sama someone lo tanpa harus ada status yang melengkat.
Dan nggak enaknya kalo someone lo deket sama yang laen, jalan bareng beduaan sama cowo atau cewe laen trus lo gak bisa berbuat apa-apa. Dan lo bakal ngelus dada dan bilang sama diri lo sendiri aku rapopo.

Iyaa lo cuman bisa ngelakuin itu gak mungkin dong lo marah2 ngebentak-bentak doi karena alasan itu, helooooo emang lo siapa?? Pacar? Mimpi kali yaww. Lo cuman friend zone nya doi alias TTDB ( temen tapi deket banget)
Hah rasanya ituuuu sakittt pake banget!! Marah lo gak mungkin karena lo gak berhak dong dengan hidup si doi, ngatur2 doi.

Yaudahlah yaa trus mau gimana dong? Gimana cara nanggepinnya?

Apa lo mesti salto dan bilang I love youuu di atas gedung tinggi terus ngancem lompat kebawah kalo gak diterima. Helooo cetek banget otak lo kalo mau ngelakuin hal itu!! Lo bukannya diterima doi lo malah dibilang freak,crazy,insane!!

Trus gimana dong? Harus apa? Kalo pengen keluar dari zona ini:'(

Jujur gw juga bingung gimana caranya, karena gw juga masih terjebak di zona ini.
Jujur atau gak sama2 ada resikonya
Kalo jujur otomatis lo bakal kehilangan semua kenyamanan lo sama si doi selama ini.
Kalo gak jujur malah tambah buat lo sakit hati setiap lihat doi sama yang laen.

Hadehhh sebegitu rumitnya -,-
Tapi gw punya satu motivasi yang mungkin bisa buat lo bertahan.

"Kalo lo emang beneran sayang atau cinte tuh sama si doi yaudah jaga terus perasaan itu, walaupun gw yakin gak mudah tapi selagi lo ngerasa nyaman sama si doi dan begitupun juga doi, mungkin aja dia bisa ngebales perasaan lo. Yang lagi dibutuhin sekarang itu cuman waktu, iyaa cuman waktu yang bisa jawab. Percaya deh seiring waktu berjalan semua akan baek2 aja. Its gonna be okay!! "

" if you love someone heartly don't let your someone go cause we don't know what's will happen in the future"

See it!! Kuncinya cuman satu percaya sama sabar. "Believe and be patient and you will get it"

Buang kata galau jauh2 jangan sampe lo ngeluarin air mata karena hal ini. Kalo friend zone ini gak bisa dilurusin dengan ikatan yang pasti yaudah tinggalin its simple na!
Berarti dia bukan jodoh lo
Cari yang laen. " so many girls or boys in the world"
You must try!

What is love

Do you know what is love?
For me love is nothing
For me love is bulshit!
For me love is pain
For me love is crazy
And love is my sadness

Hey you, yes you are
You who stole my heart
You who broke my heart
You who bite my heart
Youuuu... yes you are...

Where is your promise want stay with me
Where is your swear that you love me
I have said you before don't say you love me forever if u cant love me
Now where are you?
Where are you?
I'm looking for you, I'm looking for you

Do you know I'm still remember all our conversation
Our conversation when you call me when you texting me
I'm still remember
Oh pleaseee where are you...
Tell me where are youu...

I almost give up
I almost tired
I almost say I'm give up
Please say with your mom I'm your girl, I'm yours
Please think about me too don't only thin about your family
I know she is your mom but you shouldn't hurt me
You shouldn't

Do you know? I'm crying all the night when I remember you
I'm crying....
How stupid I am who can't forget you
How stupid I am

Hero- Enrique Iglesias

Would you dance
Maukah kau berdansa
If I asked you to dance
Jika aku memintamu
Would you run
Akankah kau lari
And never look back
Dan tak menoleh lagi

Would you cry
Akankah kau menangis
If you saw me cry
Jika kau melihatku menangis
And would you save my soul tonight
Dan maukah kau menyelamatkan jiwaku

Would you tremble
Akankah kau gemetar
If I touched your lips
Jika ku sentuh bibirmu
Would you laugh
Akankah kau tertawa
Oh please tell me this
Oh tolong katakan padaku

Now would you die
Kini maukah kau mati
For the one you loved
Demi orang yang kau cintai
Hold me in your arms tonight
Dekap aku malam ini

** I can be your hero baby
Aku bisa menjadi pahlawanmu sayang
I can kisa away the pain
Aku bisa mengusir rasa sakit
I will stand by you forever
Aku akan berada disisimu selamanya
You can take my breath away
Kau boleh mengambil nyawaku

Would you swear
Maukah kau bersumpah
That you'll always be mine
Bahwa kau kan selalu jadi milikku
Or would you lie
Atau akankah kau bersumpah
Would you run and hide
Akankah kau lari dan sembunyi
Am I in too deep
Apakah aku terlalu
Have I lost my mind
Apakah aku tak waras lagi
I don't care
Aku tak peduli
You're here tonight
Kau disini malam ini

Oh I just want to hold youuu....